Those Spilled Out...

2010-10-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

08pm still at office

ga ga...bukan kerajinan

just enjoying a (styrofoam) plate of nasi goreng before going home

kurang dari 24 jam counting downnn

to the long journey

dag dig dug

*tarik nafas panjangg*

land of opportunity, i'm coming at yaaa!

VENI!

VIDI!

....

*well okay, omit the vici

\^^/

Screwtape

2010-09-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

One night Screwtape came to me

Screwtape: Do you care about your country?

Me: I do.

Screwtape: Then, why do you keep insisting on planning to leave your workplace? You can help your country there.

Me: So did those men. They might have started working there as idealists. Then they slowly degraded into white-collar jerks. I fear that will happen to me, too. The worst that I fear I am unconsciously changing to be like them, even now

Screwtape: Too bad you choose that path, you can't imagine what sort of fabulous things you will miss. But nothing I can do, human. I have nothing against the free will privilege the Father has given to all of you, useless things.

Me: Screwtape , I know why you're easy on me in this case

Screwtape: Why?

Me: Because you create fear

Screwtape: (sneering)

Then Screwtape slowly vanished leaving me unable to put away his mocking smile from my mind

ewgh!

2010-07-20T20:54:00.000-07:00

sooo...i have severe hair loss nowadays. i didn't take that seriously before my salon helper said that my hair had not been as thick as before. well, need to do something about that, ain't I?

so, here it is --> my first attempt

It is said traditional. I took it as 'natural'. Hopefully, safe for my fragile hair.

Unfortunately, now my hair smelled like grandma's...ewgh!

I Stalk You!

2010-07-06T21:10:00.000-07:00

So I made this commitment yesterday, that I will not play Facebook while I am working. Though it is so damn tempting just to click the link in my chrome homepage bookmark.

and I broke the commitment on my first attempt today. Just can't help denying my stalker sense calling me to investigate one (often some) person in his/her Facebook profile.

Well, my job put me in the position of communicating with a lot of people, not only face-to-face but often also in written communications without ever know each other in reality. And maybe one day we meet, not recognize each other, and then feel so embarrassed to know that we have sent e-mails for several times before.

So in the name my curiosity, I often browse some persons who send me e-mail in Facebook. Most people mix their work e-mail with their general affairs such as Facebook, mailing list, etc. I used to separate them (so some people won't be able to check me up on Facebook by using my work e-mail) , but then I found my office e-mail was not working well and also I didn't have enough time to keep logging in and logging out just to check them all. So despite its forwarding options, I decided to mix them up just in one e-mail.

Well, back into the topic. My first intention to become Facebook stalker is just so I can easily recognize people when I meet them. But you know, good computer software is useless unless you upgrade your hardware. Unfortunately, it occurs to me that my brain cannot memorize people's name well, even though you have simple and common name such as Budi, Andi, Wati, etc. So does with these persons I investigate in Facebook. What always happens is that when I meet them, I remember the faces and,,,, err, err, I don't remember the names...

But no matter what, stalking and investigate people in Facebook is simply F U N

So peeps, keep up with my limited brain memory.

Summer Solstice

2010-06-24T22:35:00.000-07:00

Rainy morning. Some were the grieving of Italians. Or the sky was laughing to tear at these country's fools. That's more probable. I guess. For those who in griefs also in celebration. It's summer.

While this morning my only sunshine is an ice-block man with bright yellow raincoat, people in north hemisphere is still in summer celebration fever- 4 days ago was summer solstice! Summer solstice is the first day of summer that the sun appears at its highest point in the sky at high noon. The day is the longest day over the year and in ancient times people mark it as a turning point in growing season. Great Pyramids and Stonehenge are two of several ancient buildings that has been associated with summer solstice celebration.

We only have two season in our tropical country-dry season and rainy one. Dry season is never my favorite in the calendar year. [except for the fact that dry season is the best time to have great visibility while diving under the sea.] I just hate when the dry season comes too late, so does the rainy season. I'm longing for my December rain. Please don't come late this year. Please don't make me blame you, hey little popular thing called climate change!

Two Wings And Guts

2010-06-07T09:43:00.001-07:00

what it takes to achieve a dream

two wings

and guts

chotto dake kangae sugichau mitai

it seems like I'm thinking a little bit too much

standing on the tip of a cliff

clap my wings

- clap clap [hear the sound hear]

listening to their sounds against my body; emptiness suddenly surrounds me

Fly Fly I'm flying High!

i want to fly well i want to fly well

tobikata wo shiranai dake

though i don't know how to fly

dare ka oshiete kuretara ii no ni

I wish someone would show me how

open my eyes and look down - my foot still on the ground

don't have the gut

clapping wings are only in the mind

Wind, don't go! Be silent be patient!

I will go to that other side of the mountain

I want to fly well I want to fly well

Sora ni denakucha ikenai to skyline

I've got to get into the sky, to skyline

Notes: some of the words are quoted from YUI's song titled "Skyline"

2010-03-11T02:50:00.000-08:00

is one year enough to say

enough?

need to stop being so wishy-washy

damn it.

A Modern Monarchy

2010-02-24T05:56:00.003-08:00

My second white hotel bed sheet was in Temanggung, Central Java. Nine o'clock at night after spending the whole day to go around two villages. The activity was closed by a dinner with the district regent. And then a discussion.

It was held in regent's meeting hall. I called it a hall since it was sooo large. The regent sat in the front while others (except the main guest who was given special treatment by sitting beside him) sat on the chairs placed along his right and left side. One of his official staff then started to give a report of our day activity then was followed by others.

Getting very bored, my imagination took control. The hall was then slowly faded by white smoke....

It's the same large hall. The chair disappeared except the regent's chair. The regent of course sat on his throne. Others had to sit on the floor. Traditional gamelan instruments were played in the background. Then one by one: advisories and commanders made reports. All were in organized sequences based on the existing strict protocol.

Reality checks.

What I saw tonight was an evidence that time runs faster than tradition. We can say that now is modern era. We bring our iPhone and netbook but we kept our old times' mindsets and thus our attitudes. You can judge it in positive or negative way, up to you. But either way, since they have been rooted since our ancestor's time, to put it simply in theory: keep the good roots, yank out the bad ones, plant the better new ones and prevent the same parasites to grow on them.

semarang in the afternoon (taken from 12th floor of Ibis Hotel)

Chillies field greeting from Temanggung District

Critical Mass

2010-02-16T18:57:00.000-08:00

Critical mass is a sociodynamic term to describe the existence of sufficient momentum in a social system such that the momentum becomes self-sustaining and fuels further growth.

(see it in more complete definition - Wikipedia)

I then browsed looking up for more explanation about the term and then found an article related. The first three paragraphs has clearly portrayed what a critical mass is: a story about a builder who was unable to solve his work problem since he didn't have equal partners to discuss with.

In my imaginative mind, a critical mass is best portrayed by a bunch of people with same and specific skill and intelligence gather together, brainstorm, and cry eureka for discovering problem solution. But they are not just some thinkers since they have skill for specific competence - architect, engineer, CEOs, wedding organizer. Group of professionals.

I wonder what will happen to this country if a critical mass also exists in government level. Planning will not be based solely from academic text book but also in consideration of best practices. Law drafting will concern less political interests and more technocracy assessment. And decisions are not reactive acts but proactive ones.

Sounds really damn good. My imagination. :D

-And while I'm writing this I could hear some demonstrators were passing outside. They were singing and shouting at cars in front of them to move forward. Well, nay, that's not my imagination of a critical mass. They are just simply some people our excellency President grumbled about-